FML.

tick freaking tock. i am absolutely the biggest procrastinator of all times... it's an undying habit i have, but swears, I can't and won't stop. I'm such a stubborn bitch who can't change my own ways. Literally. I think I have issues sometimes, but that's only because I dealt with so much it made me into a nut job. Alright, not like the squirrels, but yeah.. the mixed emotions are catching onto me.

I have an essay due in approximately 3 hours and 40 minutes, but luckily, it's not one of those crazy 5 paragraphs essay type-shit... but I'm still very lazy to do it.

My head hurts, my heart hurts, my butt hurts, everything hurts! I can conclude how much aggravation I have towards everything, INCLUDING MYSELF.

But on the upside, I would like to take time to thank my girls, my life is meaningless without them. Gosh this summer has made me realize one thing, I do have the greatest friends in my life. Through it all, I think we've gone through so much and we're not like those other groups who departs after college has taken over. I love you guys and I'm thankful for all those ups and downs we had together. I believe that defines REAL friendships.

BUT for reals. My life is opening to another stage of maturity. I've come to accept the reality of truth. People live then they learn. Nobody is perfect, and people should always know that there are two sides to every story. One should only judge in the preference of knowledge and there is not an absolute right nor wrong. Everyone fucks up once in a while, but this world is forgiving in every possible way.

At this moment, it's all sighs and drips. I'm fine, but I am not Okay. That might not make sense, but on a smaller scale it does. I still constantly find myself checking on the networks. I hear a door slam and I run to the window that faces the main street. I'm too wrapped in my head with high hopes that you'll be the answer to my prayers. It feels like a year now, I need you to be my savior.

I want to run away, but sadly I have freaking priorities that reflects on the future. DAMN FMyLife!!!

ive become my own worse enemy.

I wish i didn't build myself up into this person I've become. I can't take back what is done and now I can only rely on change. But is change something i need or is it a psycho path I'm heading towards. I set my foot down to only see me drown my soul into the devil's hands.