you want a piece of me

Britney Spears, a delightful inspiration that started off a little wannabe like me, not in a sense where i want to screw up and marry a Kevin Federline but in a sense where people don't know the life behind the scenes where they only have a glimpse through the lens of the paparazzi's camera.

Some judge me because they see the exterior core of being the person I am. They hear things about me, assume things about me, better yet, they love the ideal of nip picking at my flaws. What do I say to that? most likely nothing. It's not because I am afraid to bitch back at them to correct their opinions, but it's because I grew to become alienated to the point where I really don't give a shit. People don't read between the lines. Even if they knew who i was. They're too skeptical about what's weird to them is absolutely me being myself. but reasons only lies within the mind of my own and the only people i should reason with are the ones who are true to me. Otherwise, if they want to judge, I'll let them be entitled to their opinions, I'll let them laugh and hate about the things i do, but I'll always be the one laughing because they really think i don't have ears around the neighborhood.

thats a little piece of me. till then. goodnight.

ignorrance

looking pass the windows beyond the blinds lays a flat thick lining above the leveled built houses. It is excruciating to see another day wasted. the dark grey clouds are dimming my excitement to be productive. It is currently a quarter pass four and I still can't budge out of my comforters to wedge out my homework. I have a schedule awaiting me, but sadly my laziness has consume all the physical parts I need to complete my mission.

these kind of disgusting looking days only deserve attention inside a house. where lit up fireplace is in motion and hot cocoa is ready beside my armrest. otherwise, I'm resting my body on my queen sized mattress wasting time flipping through channels to satisfy a good day in. only a lazy person would take on such an adventure. i swear these cold days begs me to become a grumpy bear on crack, hibernating til the sun finally pays another visit to the valley.

but instead of bringing down this time of the year, I can enjoy it on certain days. days where i can drag my boyfriend home where we would enjoy an immense time cuddling and napping the noon away. of course that option comes very often with the time that is given, but a days like today can seriously suck a fat duck. yeah, that's whats up. haha

well drifting off from the nonsense, i have to get back to what is called life. i can be away from it for so long, but reality wise I'm still sitting in existance where disruptions can occur once in a while. a days in can last only for so long, when duty calls, gotta go make ends meet. but as a hippo as i am, my body still neglects the priorities I have before work. therefore, I must accomplish these pointless tasks or time will pass me by.