Everything is finally turning around. Laughter and the jittery feeling is falling back into my life, as it dims out the recent past I've been putting up with. The arguments and the let downs have finally died out. I feel rejuvenated and alive living the good life.
I'm happy for the future. With my boyfriend by my side, and my two bestest, I can't wait for college to come around. Awaiting for my schedule to be tightened up is absolutely exciting since summer has left my pockets empty, and my days unoccupied.. yeah it's devastatingly boring. I just want to go to school, finish my priorities and get moving into my life where i plan on moving down to socal in two years.
I'm ready to play it my way and run over all doubts. Now all i need to do, is find myself a job. Then I'll be all set. Well that's about it for now. goodnight world.
Monday, September 8, 2008
Monday, September 1, 2008
the aftermath
"you shouldn't be with someone if they're not going to make you happy in the end"
it started off with those words and somehow karma is coming back to end this off. Even though i just got off the ship of heart break, it seriously hasn't healed from the rough trip. Everything seems to be like a fairy tale when we're together, but we're more far apart than being in the presence of each other.. leaving me feeling more alone than ever.
my heart always stay weaken with the feeling of making others happy. it was always better to have the one you love, stay happy, than pleasing your own desires. love on the other hand, is a burn of selfishness. It'll never rest until you finally had enough. Is it time to take back what's rightfully everyones? happiness is suppose to be everyone's own, right? making sacrafices is another step, but if they don't notice it, then maybe it's taken for granted. who knows..
I'm aware of what is, what has been, and what might be. but i don't know if I'll be okay to let myself hit rock bottom again, knowing every chances in life is a risk. but is that risk worth risking?
you chose to do what you did, i'll never be the one to put you the spot of choosing.
it started off with those words and somehow karma is coming back to end this off. Even though i just got off the ship of heart break, it seriously hasn't healed from the rough trip. Everything seems to be like a fairy tale when we're together, but we're more far apart than being in the presence of each other.. leaving me feeling more alone than ever.
my heart always stay weaken with the feeling of making others happy. it was always better to have the one you love, stay happy, than pleasing your own desires. love on the other hand, is a burn of selfishness. It'll never rest until you finally had enough. Is it time to take back what's rightfully everyones? happiness is suppose to be everyone's own, right? making sacrafices is another step, but if they don't notice it, then maybe it's taken for granted. who knows..
I'm aware of what is, what has been, and what might be. but i don't know if I'll be okay to let myself hit rock bottom again, knowing every chances in life is a risk. but is that risk worth risking?
you chose to do what you did, i'll never be the one to put you the spot of choosing.
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